09/05/2026
Every 2 weeks.
That's what I've come to learn about myself.
Every 2 weeks, I go through a wave of intense irritation and dissatisfaction at myself.
Why aren't you making more impact?
Why aren't you helping more people?
Why aren't you better?
A lot of pop psychology talks about this as a strong inner critic.
I've just accepted that it's part of my wiring.
It's part of what I am.
Because you know what I've learnt?
It's my choice whether I channel this energy toward something that I find useful.
Because no matter what I do, I still get back to the same place anyway.
Travelling? Feels good for 2-3 days, then we're back.
High intensity competition? Feels good for a day or two after, then we're back.
Business wins? Feels good for 2-3 days, then we're back.
Don't get me wrong, I thought there was something 'wrong' with me a few years ago.
But I was already doing the things that were most effective for management anyway.
Exercise. Eat well. Sleep. Good relationships. Purposeful life.
So if I'm already doing everything right and it's still happening then there's nothing wrong.
It's just the way it is - like an ocean that is meant to crash when it storms. No one says an ocean is wrong because there's times of rough waves.
If you're like me, then I want you to know - there's nothing wrong with you.
You're wired to create, to use these periods of irritation to generate impact.
It's not a problem, it's a gift. It's not to be fixed, it's to be channelled.