09/04/2026
I‘ve probably probably posted this before. It’s probably about 17 years old. I can’t imagine how much worse it must be now. My arms and legs were going numb a lot in the heat. So hopefully it was more related to POTs or dysautonomia. I feel so abandoned by the medical system with imaging like this. The tech showed it to me right away and said your neck isnt supposed to look like that.
It’s never been addressed despite years of neck pain, spasm, dizziness, headaches, throat pain that could be nerve related, headaches, tmj. I guess I briefly had a collar but it didn’t help and it didn’t investigate or try to work on getting the curve back.
Yoga teachers would say “just roll a towel up and put it under your neck”. But who has time to lay flat on the floor, plus there is a pest problem where I live. I don’t feel comfortable doing floor exercises anymore.
I applied for MAID, not because I want to die. But because for particularly situation, unless it improves significantly before next summer. It would be really cruel to force me to tolerate another 30C apartment that doesn’t even cool down over night.
If you know you know. My only fear is the people fear mongering about the process that it isn’t actually painless.
Another concern is because I have some missing medical documents, and the nurse hasn’t spelled my name correctly yet. I’m unsure what to expect. I’m not in a rush, but over the last three or four years it’s gone past “a rough patch”.
I’m still trying but as some of you may be able to relate. When too many things are hitting from too many different directions there can come a point when enough is enough. I don’t see a lot of hope in my personal life situation.
That doesn’t mean that other people don’t have different options or opportunities.
I hope everyone will keep fighting for each others rights and stick together. I really want people to see the big picture, that this is also directly related to how society views illness, especially lesser known types, not just EDS. And the connection it has to disability rights, woman’s health, and intersectionality.