03/01/2024
Acceptance is important in this journey. I wasted my 5 years in denial since I found out I was positive. Was infected by my second boyfriend..just the second!.. Anyways..I asked for the test at the beginning of the relationship but guy was busy...but alikua mpole Hana storo mob hata u could access his phone bila shida. I decided to take the test myself and told him if anything changes it's him. He just laughed and asked kwani unanishuku?.....The only part is there was this gal he was dating who kept calling him analenga or anakata saying ni his bitter ex. Kumbe maybe she was reaching out to tell him alim infect or something. Long story short..a year later we broke up. I wanted to go back to qatar..I was there before ...to make money and heal my broken heart nkiwa mbali. As u all know middle east u can only go if u are negative.so I went for the test..but shock on me I turned positive.I told him and he blocked me everywhere. Yaani my world turned upside down since then for the nxt five years. I used to cry...nlishikwa na depression,ulcers na pressure at only 24 years. Funny thing..this guy called me eight months later from his deathbed akiwa na AIDS asking for forgiveness. I forgave and helped him through mpaka akapona na vile he looked like a scarecrow. You see zile picha tulikua tunaona kitambo za watu wa AIDS..he looked exactly like that. He regained mpaka akanona kabisa then akanitoka and blocked me everywhere again. Aki I used to cry nkimuombea mabaya but the more I did that the more ukim stalk on social media unaona anaendelea poa kabisa. Married again ,car yaani all the good things. Mimi the more namuombea mabaya the more I became miserable. It's not untill one 31st Dec kesha... pastor told us to write things zinatusumbua and u want to let go...I wrote down I want to let all bitterness go na niachie Mungu mengine. U write anonymously then put kwa basket. At 12:01AM on new year..we went outside church and burnt them signifying we have let go.It worked ,that ye
