13/09/2017
Rainbow After the Rain
Hi guys. It's my first time, so please bear with me. Thank you din sa magbabasa. 😊
I met him in school, we were both freshmen. I was a BSEd student while he was a BSIT student back then. We started knowing each other in a typical way, text conversations because unlike other college girls na pwedeng maglakwatsa anytime after class ako hindi. Kaya wala akong time para makipagusap sa kanya outside the school kaya text or call na lang talaga. Hanggang sa nagkapalagayan na kami ng loob, he started asking me out. Liligawan niya daw ako. At first, ayaw ko kasi tingin ko hindi magwowork. But he insisted, and he's willing daw to exert effort. Hanggang sa pumayag na din ako, as the famous saying goes ''there's no harm in trying''. Totoo naman yung sinabi niya, nag-effort sya, nang sobra.
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Until one day, naging official ng ''kami'', wala ng SIYA, o AKO lang, KAMI na talaga. Hahaha. Our relationship was such a rollercoaster ride. Ang daming ups and downs. I was such an impulsive brat, whenever we had fights, nakikipagbreak ako sa kanya. At hindi siya pumapayag. Iiyak siya, then beg for me to stay. He even introduced me to his family and relatives, and somehow became close to them.
One day, sa paranoid ko, I checked his fb account. Nabasa ko yung thread ng convo nila ni 'ate girl', nakikipagflirt siya. Nagalit ako ng sobra. Ang dami kong nasabing masasakit na salita sa kanya. I broke up with him. Siya naman tong may ayaw, he cried and begged. Pero I stayed firm. Turned off my phone overnight. And that moment changed our relationship. Siguro natauhan siya, after collecting advices from his friends (?) I tried to save our relationship, oo nasa huli ang pagsisisi. Hahaha. And what's even worse is that, the day we broke up was the day before our first anniv. I ended our almost because I saw in his eyes that certain feeling na ''ayoko na'' kahit hindi niya sabihin. Kaya inunahan ko na siya.
My world went upside down. Nawalan ako ng interes sa studies ko, nagbisyo (yosi, alak). Iyak every night bago matulog. Absent minded. Basta lahat ng mga signs ng heartbroken, except pagiging suicidal guys. Lol.
After a couple of months, yung nilalandi niya sa fb naging gf niya. Oh di ba tama ako, woman's instinct. Hahaha. Yes, masakit. Every single day seems a torture. At mas torture yung alam mong hindi mo pa siya kayang palitan.
Then, one morning, I decided to put all my interest and focus on my studies, school activities, friends, and God. Since I know in myself that I am not yet ready to commit again, kaya sabi ko sa sarili ko ''mag-aaral na lang ako at ipapakita kong I'll be better even without him in my life.'' Hanggang sa hindi ko na siya naiisip kasi sobrang busy ako. Hanggang sa unti unti ng nawala yung nararamdaman ko sa kanya.
During my moving-on days, may mga guys na nagtatry ng luck nila to court me but none of them were permitted. Kasi nga hindi pa ko ready. So I would always pray ''I'm not in a rush, basta sana po kung dadating na siya, siya na ang last. Alam mo na po Lord kung anong gusto ko sa lalaki. I'm willing to wait.''
'twas my last year in college. I met this man in the most unexpected way. At first, I don't want to know him, but I ended up doing so. At hindi ko din alam kung bakit. Hahaha. I feel comfortable when I'm with him. Niligawan niya ko. Nag-effort kahit magkalayo kami. Made me feel loved every second of the day. I realized nasa kanya lahat ng qualities na gusto ko at pinagdasal ko kay God. Hihihi. At ngayon going 3 years na kami and still stronger as ever.
Para kay past, thank you kasi kung hindi dahil sayo hindi ko mamimeet si present. At hindi ako mapupush mag-aral nang mabuti to prove to you that I can be a better person without you. And because of that, I was able to graduate with flying colours. Yey! Even so, I hope you are happy now with your life.
To my present, Mahal, you are my 'Rainbow after the rain', because after all the painful experience I had, I met you. God gave you to me. You are my 'answered-prayer'. ❤ Thank you for making me not just a better person but the best person I could ever be.
Thank you guys for reading. I hope you can find your own version of 'rainbow'. Spread the love. God bless. 💖
Teacher Taray
CTE 201*
09132017
SLSU-JGE
