21/12/2025
Confession:
Mein Sindh ke chote se sheher se aaya tha, aur Karachi padhai ke liye aya. Shuru se hi mein ek hoshiyaar student tha, khaas taur pe Chemistry mein. KARACHI UNIVERSITY Evening program mein enroll hua kyunki mein lower-middle-class family se hoon aur khud apni expenses manage karna tha.
Pehle semester mein sab mushkil tha, lekin phir mein night shift job shuru ki aur dheere-dheere balance karna seekh liya. Mein hamesha akela rehta hoon, kabhi kisi ke saath close nahi rehta.
Phir dheere-dheere darr aane laga — “Kya mein sach mein kamyab ho paunga? Kya mein sirf hand-to-mouth zindagi jeeta rahunga, Chemistry degree ke bawajood?” Mein jaanta tha ke agar mein continue bhi karoon, salary shayad 50-60k tak hi rahegi, aur 5-10 saal baad jaake shayad 1-1.5 lakh tak pohonch paunga.
5th semester mein darr itna barh gaya ke mein do major papers nahi diya, aur jo diye unka average barely 51% tha, jab ke normal 88-90% hota.
Par mein ne himmat nahi hari. Mein ne apna focus shift kiya — programming, AI, machine learning, web aur app development seekhna shuru kiya. Skills pe kaam kiya jo mujhe real financial independence de sakti thi.
Ab mein university nahi jata. Ghar walon ko pata nahe hai ke mein ne padhai chhod di hai, lekin Aaj bh Ghar sae mujhe 18k har month Ghar sae aaty aur every Sixth month 53k aaty Jo mein PSX mein Invest krta k kaheen agr Abu mujhe Apne khrch Kiya paisy maangy toh shares sale kr de saku extra koi mujhe Apni Cheez bechni nahe pde
2 saal se gaon nahi gaya. Ghar walon se baat karne mein bhi darr lagta hai.
Aaj mein ek international restaurant ka branch manager hoon, aur 5-6 ghante freelancing bhi karta hoon (marketing, web/app development, AI). Itna k**a leta hoon ke apna plot aur ek Mehran car le chuka hoon. Financially mein theek hoon.
Lekin emotionally, mein confused hoon. Kabhi lagta hai — Shayad university complete karna better hota. Shayad aur achieve karta.” Lekin doosri taraf, jo path choose kiya, usne mujhe independence aur real-world success di.
Darr ab bhi hai Ghar walon ko kaise bataun ke mein ne university chhod di? Agar pata chal gaya to shayad woh mujhe nikaal dein ya punish karein.”
Mein abhi bhi try kar raha hoon ke apni achievements aur regrets ko balance karoon, aur aage ka raasta dhoondho bina apni peace lose kiye